Making Up For Wasted Time
I wasted 18 years of my life doing a job that violated my core values.
To this date, I’m still amazed at all the lies I told myself because I was too afraid I didn’t have the competencies to survive in this world.
All this time, I thought I was just a worthless, immoral, incompetent, lazy, inadequate and bad person.
I’ve been doing adult entertainment and ashamed of it since 2004.
I want to make up for all that time I wasted thinking I was a piece of trash that didn’t deserve to use her gifts.
I can’t erase the past, but I can forgive and create a new fulfilling and meaningful life.
I want to find mastery in four disciplines: drawing, playing the piano, programming and writing.
Here’s how.
#1. I will use the scientific method to self-experiment (n=1).
The scientific method I will use is divided in 8 steps.
- Define a baseline
- Ask a question
- Review scientific literature
- Define my hypothesis
- Determine a study design
- Observe and collect data
- Confirm and replicate
- Conclude
The experiments will enable me to find the most effective systems and practices.
#2. I will build an individual program in public that I can reproduce.
You’ll be able to follow the experiments on various social platforms.
Because I’m both the study subject and the observer, I think posting will keep me honest and transparent.
#3. I will not use shortcuts to develop my full potential.
Drugs and cheating are out of the equation. I’m not interested in using pharmaceuticals to enhance my faculties. All experiments must be safe and ethical.
Supplements, lifestyle and diet changes might be options worth exploring.
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The challenge is making my objectives clear and measurable.
What does mastery mean?
How can I evaluate it and based on which criteria?
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